truth

so as of recent i've been doing some things that have occupied my time. first i went to the ceremony show in edison on the 30th and that was a good time. it was nice to kick it with some homies from across the country. i was only really there to see them, so the other bands didn't really matter to be honest. mother of mercy were good. they are the homies, too. afterwards, i went with cox to the grease trucks and met up with dave and alan and plenty of others. i really don't remember who exactly was there. i know ray was and manny was but that was about it. we stayed there awhile and just spoke and hung out and were just being whatever. after the whole grease truck thing went down i decided to walk from there to where i'd be staying. beartrap and dan were at silvana's kickin it so i decided to swing through but was really tired so i wasn't in the mood to party all night long. so i got there, showered, changed, and tried to pass out on the couch but that wasn't happening. after awhile i just couldn't take it and up and left. aaron v came and picked me up and i went back to his place and slept on the futon. i woke up the next day and did nothing. aaron went to baltimore with beartrap for their show, so i was left to just veg out at his house until i found a ride. well that ride never came through and i was stuck trying to figure out what to do. eventually, i got a hold of silvana and she agreed to pick me up and hang out. it was nice of her to do so, seeing as she has school and a lot of things on her plate but i appreciated it none the less. we watched tv (law and order) and ate some food she cooked up. i decided to stay the night and then passed out while watching hero. great movie, i'm a sucker for anything martial arts related. the next day, i woke up and helped out with all the things she needed help with. hanging posters, folding clothes, moving little things, making the bed, you know all the little things. eventually, i got a ride to where my ride home was and that was that. since then, i've been home, just hanging out doing shit around the house. just waiting for the next tour to happen. it looks like i'll be leaving september 12th to october 7th with the years gone by for their rise records tour. in a way, i'm not really looking forward to this because of who the tour is with but i'll take it in stride. then as soon as i get home, i will be leaving on october 9th/10th till november 15th for the trash talk full u.s. tour with alpha and omega. that should a good time because of all the strange things that will go down on it. first couple shows with every time i die, then a new york city showcase with thursday, just a strange thought of those things happening. also, one of the shows in on my birthday, in my home state, which means i'll be having a birthday show and possibly a party for the first time in my life. it's awesome but who knows what it will hold. regardless of all this happening, i'm still kind of bummed i can't be home more. i want to stay here for more reasons then anyone knows but it's not in the cards. i've made this bed, so now instead of running, i'm gonna sleep in it. my choices have never been ones of intelligence but i'm willing to start concentrating on myself instead of worrying what other people are saying. a lot of people say a lot of things about me, but one person can't please everyone. i've always said, i've earned my respect by just being me and being real, i can't say that for a good amount of people i know now a days. well until next thursday i probably won't update this, but then again i doubt anyone even reads this honestly. alright, goodbye.