Monday, December 29, 2008

guess what?

she likes me.
nyc weekend = perfect
having someone new in my life = perfect
things looking up = perfect
anything bringing me down = not likely
in with the new, out with old.
one man's trash is another man's treasure. hahha
okay bye.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

recap.

went to my aunt's, hung out, then came home.
opened a few cards and got jeans from my mom.
woke up the next day ate food and went to my cousins.
got to see my new best friend, faith.
after that came home and somehow ended up like this,

Monday, December 22, 2008

wow.

what an unreal week. i can't even begin to explain it.
most of the time it was spent doing absolutely nothing and i loved every single moment of it.
i can't even begin to describe what is going through my head.
i should've just opened my eyes. she's awesome.
that's an understatement honestly. 
i'm not worrying about it right now.
when the time is right, i'll scream it from the highest mountain and everyone will know.
until then, only cox will have an idea of what i'm talking about. hahaah.
yea besides that, things are looking pretty good right now.
playing bass for a&o at the end of january.
short east coast run with tt/europe with tt in february. 
sxsw in march with either tt or a&o.
possible full us with a&o playing bass in march as well.
who knows things are looking pretty good.
possible warped tour, and other big things going down.
for once i'm actually in love with where i'm at.
i've copped some feelings. it's cool.
until next time, peace i love and miss you.

Friday, December 19, 2008

update.

it's been so long since i've said anything this real.
but i think i might have found the girl of my dreams.
speechless.


i've been keeping busy as much as possible.
trying to make things happen for myself.
it's so hard to rely on and trust other people, especially those who say they are there for you.
people who have to say they are friends, aren't truly friends.
if you have to try something as simple as friendship, then it will never work.
this was bound to happen but i think it's a blessing in disguise.

spoken clearly, i was taken advantage of, but no more.
peace, i love and miss you.

Monday, December 8, 2008

much needed vacation

What else in this room reminds me of you?
The windowsill with a crucified pit of an avocado still sits in water.
What else in this room reminds me of the relationship I've ruined.
The tables I made strong enough to hold your magazines,
But not your tired legs.
One more week in this apartment,
One more week of being haunted by the ghost of what should have been.
What else in this fucking empty room reminds me of fucking you?
An orphaned couch where I spent some long nights
While you went out with our friends.
What I wouldn't do to be a ghost like you, to be somewhere new.
To leave everything,
The way you left everything that reminded you of me.
One more week in this apartment, one more week of being haunted.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

FUTURE PLANS

DECEMBER: 
beach house painting. 
xmas party at my sisters. 
texas for a vacation. 
xmas.  

JANUARY: 
new years. 
tour with alpha & omega, internal affairs, cruel hand  

FEBRUARY: 
california for a brief time possible 
tour home with valencia  

the rest is still up in the air but i'm feeling confident that things will work out for the best.
YEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

my friend JP posted an article type thing i wrote for his zine in his blog.
so go check it out if you have some time.