there's a crushing feeling that cripples the body when a person finds out that everything they want and need aren't so easily attained. brush back the hardships and find the silver lining. comb the adonis like hairs called life and relive the greatest moment known to man. insert your name and age when necessary and leave out the evil that provokes heartache. your skin is paralyzing to the touch, i can't restrain myself. if i hold on tight enough, i'll be attached to the hip with you forever. walk me to the morgue and leave me there to celebrate my overdue passing. the flowers look beautiful but smell stale. the peculiar odor is very disheartening and turns my stiff body to vapors. i want to be the sweat that drips and slides down your body in the ever so tender occurrences of passion. i grip your body with strength i never knew i possessed. i've wrapped myself in your arms like blankets on a baby. the warmth between us could light the darkest of days and fuel the emptiest of days. legs intertwined and hands locked and loaded for youthful mornings after spending the night lost in each others gaze. my chest won't sit still, it's pounding. my heart is looking for a way out and i won't let it leave. i want to give you the world. my world. if i ever see you again after this slumber, i pray it never ends. i still feel you, i still miss you, you've meant more to me then you'll ever know. if ever a day, you decide to stay, this waiting game i play will make up for time spent away.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
when you have nothing and have to hustle to get by, it really brings out the best in you. (and the beast in you) is it comforting knowing that when shit needs to get done, i'm down to ride 110%. i don't know it's strange, whenever i'm placed on my own, i seem to flourish. if you get cornered and find yourself struggling to figure something out, look within and not outwardly. when you can assess the situation first, then you can ask people you thoroughly trust for a helping hand. often i try to pause, rewind, stop and replay moments instead of living in the present but no longer. i was on a good path for quite a while and somehow in the past couple weeks deviated from that path. i fell back into the swing of old things but i realized i lost focus and now i'm back on track. forwards ever, backwards never.
Monday, May 4, 2009
maybe something is wrong?
maybe some things are wrong?
maybe some things never were.
maybe something goes right.
give me eyes, so that i may not see.
grant me speech, so that i must never speak.
lend me ears, so that i'll ignore the world.
don't wake me up to drive,
leaving you is worse then the thought.