Sunday, November 30, 2008

Saturday, November 29, 2008

November Never Remembers

love comes and loves goes, the tug-a-war i play with her is beginning to seem like a losing battle. words no longer matter. actions no longer matter. being alone and out on the road has become my daily ritual. i've learned to accept it and live with it. one day it will pay off big time and i'll be happy in the long run. i thought coming home would make me happy this time around but the same shit happens endlessly and i'm back where i started. no one really misses another and there are no winners in this life. the city for the shitty. quote me now and never forget, "things are golden, even if you can't see past the silver lining."

Thursday, November 20, 2008

the many opportunities

there are so many things coming up for me.
so many things are gonna take place.
you don't even know
i won't even know until they're happening.
i'm so happy.
are you happy?
yippy skippy
fly me away to a far away land.
check in with me soon and i'll let you know all the possibilities that are approaching.
bye for now, i love you.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

it's been a long road

so I've been out since september 10th and it's now the middle of
november. that's a real thing to comprehend. it's been a long road and
one I've traveled before but for some reason I feel good about this
one. burned a lot of bridges that didn't need to stand. I feel good
this time around. I'm not relying on anyone in particular and I'm
doing things for myself. I've disappointed plenty of people in the
past and I'm through with that. I realize I fucked up a lot of good
things but if I can't look back and learn (and laugh) then I'm missing
something. met some awesome people along the way. some people are just
genuine, good people and I like that. I'm not that close to normal but
being accepted for who I am by ones who aren't like me is a somewhat
good feeling. bringing home that dough is nice but it's not
everything. life experiences are far greater then money. going to
alaska, seeing land marks, and visiting things like the alamo, the
grand canyon, and the pacific coast on a constant basis is unreal. I
might be delaying real life right now but I know once I get into the
swing of that I'll hit it head on. on another subject, I really miss
somebody but it's a lose-lose situation for myself. I have my reasons
and in my head they all make sense. it's only 11 days til I'm home for
awhile through the new year. this might be the last post I do til I'm

til then, I love you