Monday, January 19, 2009

hey hey hey

everything is just great. i can't even begin to explain it.
holding grudges seem so childish now a days.
i'm in a good place right now and i couldn't be happier.
no more faking smiles, or trudging towards a not so hopeful day, none of that.
it's all on the up and up.
i don't know why i didn't see it earlier. i guess sometimes i blind myself instead of opening my eyes to what's really going on.
i wasn't me for the longest time, but i seem to come around a lot less without you.
crazy how once you put your life into perspective how things tend to fall into place.
my feelings aren't hurt, i'm actually back to normal i believe.
to anyone that reads this, i hope you're doing good and your life is great.
i don't wish the worst anymore.
tour starts on the 27th and i couldn't be anymore excited.
i have a full plate in front of me and i can either decide to eat up or excuse myself because i'm full.
i'm taking this day by day from here on out.
life's way too short to waste it on liars, cheaters, and haters.
keep doing you and i'll keep doing me.
i hope there's pictures of me playing bass for alpha and omega from this upcoming tour because there will be some nice shirts worn as i'll try to shout out as many close friends as i possibly can. 
i probably won't write in this til tour starts, so until then, goodbye.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009


Crazy how I feel,
living without you
Inside this house that we built.
It seems like the windows
Finally open
Letting the memories out

Go on and love him
Love him forever
I will not tell him 
I told you to
You’ll never know dear 
How much I loved you
Lovin’s for fools
Lovin's for fools

Maybe you’ll find me 
Walking the garden
Looking for something pure.
Roots that are growing, 
Deeper and deeper
Mabey you’ll pull them too.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

where's your head?

it's so strange that i can't think of one person i hate.
i mean i dislike a lot of people and i could go without ever seeing most, but i'm so far beyond hating people anymore.
it's weird, that once you meet someone who makes you happy, things tend to change in your head.
i'm currently working, getting jobs left and right, and looking into the future.
past stay past, future is future.
forwards ever, backwards never.
love's made me blind, love's made me feel alive, love's made me depressed. 
everyone choses their own demise, i think i'll save mine for another meltdown.
no thanks,'s a weird thing.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

body rolling

what started off as fun, has now turned serious.
i couldn't be any happier then i am right now.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

this mix is what i've been liste​ning to

for the past week.​

tequi​la mocki​ngbir​d - brook​lyn basem​ent
chris​ brown​ - take you down
trey songz​ ft. twist​a - just gotta​ make it
black​stree​t - we gonna​ take you back
black​stree​t - befor​e i let you go
mya ft. jay-​z - best of me (​remix​)​
mos def - ms. fat booty​
mos def - my umi says
nas - just a momen​t
fabol​ous ft. ne-​yo - make me bette​r
usher​ ft. young​ jeezy​ - love in this club
usher​ - u remin​d me
allur​e ft. 112 - all cried​ out
justi​n timbe​rlake​ - my love
justi​n timbe​rlake​ - summe​r love/​set the mood

hate all you want,​ no care whats​oever​.​
someone makes me feel good, someone makes me laugh, and someone makes me quite happy i'm where i'm at currently.
can you guess the 3 people?