Thursday, November 19, 2009
re-evaluate the message
where is that one person you want the most when you really need them? i've asked myself this numerous times and have yet to even come up with a justified answer. it is that i'm scared or just unwilling to except my place? i know i'm good at what i do. yes i believe in myself to an extent, but i'm just so turned off by jealousy or obsession. when people talk too much or create this fake persona it's so easy for me to see through it. with some people i just want to slap them and say, "hey, look i know and i get it, but you're not fooling anyone, especially me." is it even worth it though? in the long run i'll be completely okay with being me and still feel sorry for all those who are just pretending to be something. here i am, 24 years old, doing what i want and having a blast. i'm siked to look to back on these times and think, "man i'm experiencing so much and learning a ton along the way. i'm really blessed." i guess at the end of the day, what it really comes down to is, there's a lot of people in my life that are flat out useless and don't mean anything to me. let's see, i'll break down every aspect of my life and weed out the things i don't need. music - awesome. friends - awesome. family - awesome. anything else i'm missing? yes. no comment.